but interrogatives were never introducedif i were to say what i want how i want when i wanti would talk of you you and me you and she you and theyi could speak to the trees mountains clouds sun and seei would declare:shaded life peaks soft white density with a glow from my eyeslove tingles even with a ghost and family in the mixwhere doesn't matter why scares me who is ibut interrogatives were never introduced.
One Word From Youstripped downin a place of stuckleftwith a vow of adornmentlips sewn shutwith the thread of pridemy tongue picks at the stitchingand a single syllablewill not slipfor fear of further piercingbut, a wordone word from youwould spread the seam with a rip
Twisted Corsettwisted corseteager handstangled in stringsof the heartloversdenied timeslip away
Alternatively, Zeros and Ones a measure tempered in shadowstime talks zeros and onesspeaking binary with a slip of the tonguehe divulges the rules of give and takea salve, a killeras he passes, he heals my heartforces my eyes openhe knows my bodymy facegives me no respitepulls me closer to my end everydayand yet my heart beats a staccatoupon seeing his face every morningi love him, i hate himi hang upon his every wordwhen he talkszeros and ones
The Betrayal of Lumenlights danceplayfully, strikinglyagileas they waltz acrosshertear-stained, blood-drainedunlocked face
i found your lips on the groundi found your lips on the groundi put them to my cheekcradled them lovinglythey spoke to me promisesin feather-light caressesimploringi give them back tothe crisp green grasswith tearsi don't pretendto want just part of you
i taste your desire in meyour breath on my cheekshivers to my lipsraces with minesharing moist heati taste your desire in me-i hold you in my thoughts
i am opened (A Pseudo Ode to a Poet)nowsoft openingput your finger infeel the moisturethe heatedstaccato beatof fluid expressionbeforecold wastelandfingers not welcomeddenied the drynessthe aridwithered thumpof comatic depressionthenfucking poemfingers hands lips teeth tonguefought for airthe decadentpounding clackof worded manifestationyou poet burned my fortressignited my voicebranded me one of youi am openedgive me your hand
To Become Onesnowflakes drift apartsideways in the white ocean-on land, become one
I Know You're Lying When... (I)YourEyesLightUp
I know You're Lying When...(II)You'reHoldingMyHand
i step into you with impurity
i step into you with impurityembrace me in warmthlick my skinget meweti love a good showerdon't you?
resonanceidoes she know the astrological significanceof the bruises starring alongyour wrists? if I could, I’drun away somewhere wherethe sky is silent and the peoplehate honest eyes. here’s my problem,I’ve wasted all my time daydreamingin the universe of your scars. I wonderif substantiality is lethal.ii[when will you move onlike you know whatyou’re doing with your life,like this tiny existentialfailure is only a hazard signon the roadmap of your journey,like the world weighing downupon your shoulders is anexercise in vanity and quietudeinstead of someoneelse’s burden?]iiilists of necessities: methods ofstarvation, hours to fall asleep by, sharpobjects, words that mean nothing.I’m sorry this isn’t better. I’m sorryI’m not better and I’m sorrynothing is bright anymore.things you remind me of:the november skyright before it rains.
Deux ex machinaMaybeyou should start being morehonest with yourself.You will never be aconstellation ora sunspot on themoon; only fallenheroes belong there,and your life wasn'tpitiful enough tocavort with the stars.The gods love agood tragedy, but only whenthey're the oneswriting the playbill. Itisn't any fun when the actorsforget their lines andbreak character.(better draw the curtainsbefore the performance morphsinto a comedy)You say "I'm sorry" but inreality the only thingyou're apologizing for isleaving before the showended and reading thewrong horoscope that day.
DepressionThe saddest tragedy contains no death.
Two hearts beating the sameYour eyes stare into mine like the depths of the seawaves of emotion lapping at my consciousnessWhispers of tomorrow and yesterdayblend into the presentwith jarring accuracyHope and fear waft through the airin jumbled sensibilitieswhile trust builds and fadeswith the passing dayEach heartbeat an eternityof the here and nowfighting the might have beenworried for the soon to comeAs the day turns to nightwe dream and dare to hopebut with each dawning raywe also fear the separationof all that was and isI will stand here at the crossroadsand wait for fates handI will let the wild dream of hope fill meand fight the fear within...Two hearts that beat such a strong rhythmcan never be torn apartunless they so chooseit is this belief thatmust sustain meabove all else..We will never be separated again
DesperationI want to shred your imaginationLeave you pale beneath the starsI want to rip open your indignationExposing all your scarsI want to bleed your desperationCatching your despair in jarsI want to feed your recriminationAs you scream out your parts
To the Left BehindTo the one left behind,There were days when I thought that I couldn't live without you. Where I thought that everything I ever believed in was a lie. I thought that being around you was important and that our friendship was stronger than the very mountains we once stood on. However, as time has passed, I've come to realize these things are not important nor are they true. I never needed you.The realization that you were nothing more than a figment of my imagination wasn't there at first, but the longer I thought on it, the more I dissected who I thought you were vs what you actually showed. I was baffled at my own actions and found myself trying to find out why I let you get so close to me. You were nothing like what you claimed and had proved it far too many times. Then the answer came to me in a flash. You reminded me of someone else, someone who was worth all the time and effort I had poured into you.Strange how synchronicity works, the moment that I had the realizatio
Shh don't speakShh don't speakThere's no one to listenWhisper the wordsthat you bury deepinto your soulShh don't speakyour worries are foolishbut still you long forcomfortsilly girlShh don't speakthe truth will onlyhurt youand no one willpick up the piecesShh don't speakKeep silentKeep quietKeep it all inside
Seperated by seaHow do you knowHow can you see that deepfurther than I let anyoneSo far away and yet.. There you areWhy?How can you sense my moodsHear my thoughtsBefore I ever express themExplain to me my own feelings...Always back to the beginningTwo sides? Or perhaps oneThe only connection I've never fearedHow did we get this way?We've been separated by oceans and still..Here we are able to see into the heartEach other, pulled towards one anotherlike magnets pulling across spaceOne pulls to the otherLonging? Or maybe something elseEvery time I see you in my dreamsOur hearts connect and we sync upShare, remember, hope and then..We fade back into the distance and watchIf there was ever someone who was my spiritual adviser or equalIt would be you and I don't know how to express thisThe love I feel completes me and maybe it completes you..When I remember fire lights and beginnings I remember youThe one past I can't quite place and perhaps that isThe place where I belong..
A dream and a wishDid you hideAway from meVague dreamsIn the moonlightDid you screamRuined thoughtsOn saddened twilightSing to me a songEvery night of sweet hope..Lately I just dreamI'll always be in love with youSpeak and I'll hearAlways those words that are trueAnd when the sun goes downNever will my thoughts strayDaring each second ofEvery passing dayRemember what I saySomething's always remain trueOnly this heartbeatNever forgets you.
Reflected in your eyesReflected in your eyes are countless passing galaxiesLong before sunrise I see past fading fantasiesSoftly words I rue, my love formed a whispered anthemI wonder if it's true, do I have the will to face themWhen the stars reflected in your eyes begin to consume meI wonder if I'll see those sighs or if you will entomb meThe way we say our part a whisper of such passionYou've stolen into my heart loves reining fashionEverything you do seems to overwhelm my sensesI only seem to want you and you overcome my tensenessThe light in your eyes brings me back to the beginningSo right are these ties my emotions are brimmingTake whatever you need of me, I give freelyI follow your lead you see, so easilyOur souls call again, one to the otherOur hearts are twinned, no longer asunder
Just tell me goodbyeDroplets slowlyMove downThe broken window paneStare at the darkened skyConsoled by the rainWounds inflicted byYour wordsTears hidden behind a smileI don't want to break this downBut it's best if we move onLove itself brings us this painOh, I hate that love songThe light fades from the dayAnd the moon hides in the cloudsThe heat in your heart fadesAnd I'm standing all aloneJust tell me goodbyeOh, tell me goodbyeIt's easier this wayJust tell me goodbyeTell me goodbyeBefore it's all too lateWhen the dream that stirred our bloodFinally breaks into the dayJust tell me goodbye..Tell me goodbyeIt's already too lateI stared into your eyesWatched the weakness grow and strain As we try to surviveThe feelings show but we refrainI've never needed anyoneLike I've needed you todayBut it's too late for what we wantWe gave it all awayHearts beating, so in tuneTo late to realize where we'd goThere's never enough roomFor it to ever showBaby, when your ey
Thank you for the liesI just wanted to thank youFor everything you put me throughI would never have learned what to dohad it not been for youThank you for your liesThey opened up my eyesThank you for false dreamsI learned to see past what it seemsThank you for your checkered pastWhich helped me see through others fastThank you for playing with my headShowing me what to do insteadThank you for your broken wordI learned to see false things as they're purredThank you for every kindness you didn't showYou taught me more than you will ever knowThank you for the painI have learned from you disdainThank you for your lying soulI learned from you and now I'm wholeThank you for your angry tiradesYour shallow rants, show your memory fadesThank you for running awayI'd not be the same were you to stayThank you for denying meBecause now I can really seeAll the love in front of me